Coming out of a not-so-rainbow, dark closet.

I’ve been hiding out, too afraid to be myself in the world. Afraid? No, it’s not strong enough. Utter soul shattering terror.

“Programmed” with different protocols of what to say and how to behave in different situations, I always hoped to be liked and therefore “safe”. In the last year of healing I learned that in doing so I have long abandoned my SELF in a dark closet, hoping never to be discovered.

Well hello world. It’s time to come out.

This blog is my equal to jumping out of the plane for someone who fears heights, swimming in the ocean for someone who fears the depths, or singing in the middle of Time Square if stage fright is your thing.

In sharing my honest experiences, I unapologetically choose take up space in the big vast world. My deepest hope is someone feels seen, feels understood, and walks away with a little bit of healing.